Sometimes it feels life just passed you by, like a bad dream. It does not even give u time to comprehend what just happened, it may not be plane crash intensity but quite the opposite, slow and painful and the reason you do not comprehend is cuz u you suddenly go into denial, as if it is not happening to you at all! Our psyche has its own defense mechanism that works quite well to cushion us to any mental damages that we may incur due to such incidences in our lives. I just wonder if they come back to haunt you later. I am too young to prove that right now.I always thought that you could be in the other person's shoe and understand what they maybe going thru, but that is so untrue.. you can never know what is not, till you have actually experienced it. So the whole phrase that we generally say in sympathy "I understand" is so fake, because we don’t, and even cant if we have not gone thru it ourselves. I definitely have learnt my lessons of not using that phrase loosely.
Life is always not planned in the way you like it to be, even a small spot of doubt in your head can really mess around with the whole " I am positive _____ will happen" outlook. But have we ever thought why we doubt occurrences in our lives? There is a counter mechanism that goes in the process, head says : I don’t think its possible, and heart says : be positive; it will happen, how the hell do you listen up and to who? But here is where the gut comes into the picture. you just go by it, and bang that is what u get.. do u see how the whole organ system actually helps us to be more decisive and prepares us for all the outcome. I m totally impressed!
If you are strong enough, a negative outcome cannot devastate you, because u have the power to "let go", and seek newer pastures, it actually feels like releasing a dead fetus after 10 weeks of pregnancy; you know u have bonded with it, but because it is not viable, its needs to let go and then you move on to mate again, in quest of success.
In our lives, we have good days and bad days, and only if we have to gauge it deeply, we realize, how out bodies work double time not only physically but mentally to help us reach where our ambition take us.
I really wonder would it take us to reward ourselves for what it does for us?
